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Come to think of it
Im not entirely sure
Where i lost myself

Maybe it was in those 8 long
Hours of classtime
Lost in notes and due dates
Equations and definitions

In beds of strangers or
Old friends who i no longer
Know the whereabouts of

Was it in love lost or forgotten?
Perhaps words of friends exchanges
Greetings and goodbyes

Did i lose myself somewhere
Along these roads driven on
Late nights
To places with people whose
Faces i wont ever recall?

Did i leave myself behind in
Books or in shows or at the cinema?
In lonely yet cozy coffee shops?
Or crowded concert halls?

Or maybe it was ticking of clocks
And the counting of time
Waiting for the better times
That never came

Come to think of it
Im not entirely sure i had ever lost myself
Im not entirely sure i had ever had myself
Maybe its all those places
That made me
Yes, simple, coffee loving,
Book worm and music horder, me

just my own perfect hour

When the rays of the sun glide upon the water

Making it shine and stand so still

The lake becomes my great friend,

My heart's joy,

Each and every sunset.

The blazing sun, golden orange

Kneels before the water

And sinks slowly into the depths

The rocking boats witness this magic

Of my perfect hour.

The surface of the water

Shimmers as the sun's rays

Hands it soft loving pats

The boats rock gently 

Slightest ripples of water

Like a child rocking in a cradle

I sway from side to side in my boat

And like a child gazing into its mother's eyes

I am mesmerized by the setting sun.

The mellow amber and radiant orange hues

Dive into my heart, making pools of joy

My perfect hour is, snuggling in my boat

Watching the sun set on the lake.

interested in you

Be with someone who is interested in you. 

Now i don't mean someone who thinks you're cute and funny.

I mean someone who wants to know every insignificant detail about you.

Someone who wants to read every word you write.

That person who wants to listen to every note of your favourite song just to feel

how you feel

and watch your favourite scene of your favourite movie so you'll have something to 

laugh about when you're old

Someone who wants to learn about every scar, small or big, on your skin or in your heart,

just so they know where each of them came from

Someone who wants to know the quotes that resonate deep inside your bones.

There is a significant difference between attraction or lust and genuine interest.  

In all honesty, once you have found that person, regardless of your relationship, could be just friends or a lot more than that, never ever for the sake of humanity let them go. Because its those people who will stay till the end.  They are permanent when the rest of the world is temporary.  

Speaking

All i wanted was his sweet lips with clarity

I just wanted him to see the real me

Women, future and being.

Not manifestation of how much at first

Loneliness hurt, and it created an entire person.

I know that it was no accident you chose a rib;

a bone so in love it bow around his poor human heart

I do not regret forfeiting paradise for friendship, but 

to weep over a halo sunrise, slowly blanketing a crippled world

I have him, now - completely

outside the doors of paradise

far away from what we really wanted

And although we are each others

we both can only see each others shivering bodies

we cannot touch, cannot hold, all huddled outside the golden gate

but yet we crave. 

Quote #1

“I have always enjoyed dealing with a slightly surrealistic situation and presenting it in a realistic manner. I’ve always liked fairy tales and myths, magical stories. I think they are somehow closer to the sense of reality one feels today than the equally stylized “realistic” story in which a great deal of selectivity and omission has to occur in order to preserve its “realist” style.”

Stanley Kubrick

Young Girl

i don't need to tell you her pain

or anything she felt for that matter

but all you should know is that

you caused damage to an innocent soul

of a reckless young girl, who gave her all

 Its you who taught this young girl to love,

and it was you that made her feel eternal

but it was also you who destroyed her smile and

it was all you she wrote in her small red journal

All she could sing was stupid love songs

from artists like Usher and Neyo

all she said was that there would always be that 

one person who stole your heart

but that you could never see it coming 

because you were blinded from the start

And after a while, she fell comfortable

she was happy and felt free

she also told her friends about you 

and they all thought she was as happy

as she could physically be

She would be smiling in her lessons

gleaming all day long

but then came that day 

when her smile was snatched from her

It was her first, and most heartfelt love

she poured her life into making you happy

but you weren't comfortable, from being too happy

and for that you will be sorry

For you have lost a great young girl

who wanted nothing but you

she now sits and looks at the pearl

and thinks of the relationship you just blew

Lifetime

I can't let nothing come in between the two of us.
Because it's like you're all i need since we've been together.

And whenever I'm in need of a little

love, it's okay for me to open up. 

But i just can't give my heart to anyone else.

Some only come in your life for a season, and stay a while,

giving you a reason to take
temporary and think that it's forever.

And you've given me someone that I can believe in.

I know that there will be times we can't come to an agreement. 

But i know we'll figure out the
up's and down's. 

Let me put you in my hands

I want to be your girl

So that's right and you'll be with me a lifetime

He'll know and I'll know

We know I'm not talking crazy

Want it to be me and you for a lifetime

I used to think the idea of love was hopeless and 

now that i should just give it up

But then i decided i couldn't stop until i found myself good man

to fall in love

I check in every city and state 

looked all around the world. And I'm proud to say

that my search ends here. 

Because you're one in a million to me

And i refuse to let you go.