fake happiness

"are you happy?" is such a difficult question

I always say yes, because when it comes to it, i have friends,

i laugh at jokes, a go out a lot and have fun.

My life isn't half as bad as it could be, and i don't have terrible

problems, it could be a whole lot worse.  

But then one night, one night at 3AM when i'm alone

still awake, lying in bed, thinking about life like very other teenager, i 

begin to put myself into a bad mood and eventually,

i find myself crying my heart out

and suddenly i convince that nobody likes me, or 

nobody will ever like me, I feel horrible.  

I question everything i have 

And i don't know if i was ever happy at all