writing

There is only one difference:

I am never writing for the audience

Like experts are trained to do

I write with a fist,

When the sun has gone down and

When i desperately don't want to fall 

over myself 

onto you,

I write.  

My prose, you know,

They will never be what you expect from

me - because 

We just don't know each other.

I can't write for you with the voice that 

We need, that is a requirement of 

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Tell you I like your tie and I look

Right at you.  

Over my wine glass - I'm looking

Right at you.

I write with the calm inclination of

One who knows I can't possibly

Think of you today.

Not today.