imagine

the hardest part of being in love is that i can actually imagine my future with him, and that makes every day painful, eagerly waiting. 

I can see myself waking up in the morning, and having him by my side, rolling over to grab my waist and feel his stubble against me and the sheets over our bare skin. 

I can imagine making breakfast in the kitchen, dancing around to terrible pop music wearing nothing but his clothes and kissing him whilst the smell of coffee surrounds us. 

I can see us arguing over the silly little things, what colour to paint the kids room, what to have for dinner that night, what to put on the tv.

I can imagine making him clean the dishes as i get the kids bathed and in bed.  I can imagine reading them bed time stories as he looks on, making sound effects to make the kids go wild. 

I can see us going to bed ourselves, me wearing his clothes and cuddled up to him in bed.  My head on his bare chest, listening to his breathing slow down and hear his heart beating, knowing that it belongs to me. 

And it will be in that moment that i know, he will be the one to make my life perfect. 

Anonymous

I HOPE THERE ARE DAYS IN YOUR LIFE WHERE YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH BEING ALIVE

ask me

Ask me what my favourite colour is and i'll describe the colour of his eyes.  Ask me what my favourite sound is and i'll explain how his voice is a song i'll never get tired of listening to.  Ask me where my home is and i'll tell you how it feels like to be wrapped up in his arms.  Ask me what makes me happy and i swear i'll tell you that i cant stop smiling when i look at him.  Ask me what love is and i'll simply say his name. 

in the end

AND IN THE END
WE ARE JUST HUMANS
BROKEN INTO PIECES
BELIEVING
THAT LOVE WILL STICK US
BACK TOGETHER

i dont

I DON'T CRY EVERYDAY ANYMORE

BUT I STILL GET DAYS 

WHERE I CAN'T GET MYSELF TO INHALE

THE FRESH AIR AND SMILE

AT FAMILY WHO TREATS ME LIKE AN OUTSIDER

AND MY WORLD FEELS LIKE IT

MIGHT EXPLODE

BUT THEN I REMEMBER

THE PEOPLE WHO I LOVE AND WHO LOVE ME 

THE PEOPLE WHO I CARE FOR AND IN RETURN

CARE FOR ME 

THE PEOPLE WHO MAY NOT BE MY BLOOD

BUT MEAN MORE TO ME THAN MY FAMILY

you got me ~ Someone Else - Banks

everything i do 

im gonna think of you

don't know what else to do

you got me 

you got me baby 

everything i make 

i only make for you

baby be patient for me 

and please don't fall in love with 

someone else 

look at you

I look at you
as if you put the stars in the night sky,
as if your laugh was what made the ground shake,
I look at you simply as if you were the reason flowers and tree's grew out of the ground
they grow to see you, to make you happy and to see you find love
I like to think the world has revolved to a point where we found our love
In each other

Breathe

All I wanted
Was to swim to the surface
And breathe

one

sometimes things aren't accomplished
doesn't matter how hard you try 
your life will never be complete 
unless you are with the one you want 
the one who gives you happiness 
and makes you forget all those bad days

i have found that one.   

2 days

its been two long days

without being able to say

goodnight and goodmorning

to the only one i need

i need to hear his voice

and take back my happiness

i need to hold him again

and just never let him go

being close to him

to hug him

and kiss him

and tell him that i love him

is everything i want and need right now

i miss you Bambi, so so much

and i love you with all my heart and soul

5th April 2015

this day was meant to be beautiful.  It was our month anniversary and we sent each other messages saying how much this meant to us.  It was sweet, natural and simply adorable. 
Then as the day went on, things turned a little sour, thinking and talking together of all the hardships we have yet to face and the ones we have already been through.  I cant forget what you said  "stronger together" and that you will love me always. It was words as simple as those that made me sleep somewhat peacefully, made me smile as i fell asleep not cry and what made me not bring that blade any closer to my arm where i used to feel the slightest bit of satisfaction.  For these things alone, i love you and i dont need anyone else.  I love you with my heart and soul to which you and only you hold the keys. 

I love you Bambi Kyle.  My world 💕

Laugh

I never knew love
Had a sound
Until the day
I heard you laugh

It was like
The sweet song
Played on the strings
Of my heart

You have shown me
True happiness
That i can never repay
Or forget